It has been a month since Tom died. Exactly a month. I have moved through that month with a foggy brain and at the same time learning how to do things that I have never done before: visit the accountant for the taxes. I said to him, "This is what I want--I want you to fictionalize my tax return and I will pay you money." It turned out he didn't have to fictionalize anything, because our lives were in his computer already. I was out of there in 20 minutes. I paid him, of course, but not nearly what he was worth to me.
I had to have the oil changed in my car. Never have had to do that. I was like a queen bee sitting on my marital throne. They laughed at my Fiat 500. One of the guys came into the waiting room and I asked, "Why were you laughing at my car?" He replied that they hadn't been laughing at the car but at themselves. One out of four of these guys knew how to drive a stick shift. Ha.
I have to to deal with robots on the phone and listen to gaggy music while I wait for a human being to help me. I hate these phone calls. I'd rather go in person than deal with robots. But guess what? No one works in the office anymore. They work from home on their computers.
The guy at the bank was lovely to me. So was Cynthia from DMBA.
Tonight, I rummaged in Tom's closet and found an unopened box: an Intex Challenger I blowup kayak with one seat in it. For fishing on a lake, I thought. He bought a blow up boat. Maybe it will flood in downtown Salt Lake this year, and I'll blow that thing up and paddle down Main Street. Tom would like that.